This week I've been trying to distract myself from something going through my head. It's nothing that I feel like sharing with the world at this moment, but know that it's nothing to serious. It's hard to do, very hard. Especially when it's something that you want to think about constantly, but your heart is telling you not to. A friend of mine told me to pray for peace in my heart. I'm trying, trying really hard. I say the prayer numerous times a day. She told me also that God has a plan for me, and it's His plan, NOT mine. That's another thing that's hard for me. I have a STRONG type A personality. I have my ducks in a row, and don't mess them up! She says maybe God is trying to teach me a lesson right now. The lesson being that when I want something it's not always when He wants something. When I need something, it's not when He wants me to have it. So I continue to say my prayer of peace...all day, every day. I will say this prayer til I'm blue in the face, if that's what it takes. I will say it so many times that I feel it, that I mean it, and that it's true. I want peace in my heart, I NEED it.
Hi Carri,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that something has you so unsettled. I know what you mean though, I am a total control freak and it's hard to trust that there is something bigger than you controlling the situation sometimes. Hope things work out okay.
All the best.
My motto for the past few weeks. It's all true...just hard for people like "us" (the crazy control freaks) :)
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