Somedays...

I love the days that they don't fight, and actually enjoy each other. The other 364 days of the year, well we won't talk about those!

Hard To Believe

Yesterday this little man turned 5!

I can't believe it!!  I swear it was just yesterday that I was going to the hospital.  It's crazy how fast the time has gone.  Right now he's sitting by me in his duck jammies playing cars, and in the blink of an eye he will be sitting here on HIS laptop.  Breaks a mama's heart :(  I tell him all the time he will always be my baby boy.  He's says he's a "big boy, NOT a baby".  In my eyes he will always be that fluffy haired baby!  As I wipe my tears just one more HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAX....you're the best son a mama could ask for!

 

Lost Time

Dear Blogger,
     I've worked with you for many of days now. I've come to the conclusion that we have a love hate relationship.  Most days you hate me!  That's okay the feeling was mutual.  I've rearranged this blog design five million times, and still I'm not totally pleased with it.  At one point I started totally from scratch, deleted every last thing. Last night I almost left it that way, taking the minimalist approach.  I still want "tabs" on the side with my "about me, blogs I read" etc, but I want my own funky font, not the plain jane blogger has to offer.  I have had MANY failed attempts at this, so if anyone, ANYONE has any advice for this your help will be GREATLY appreciated.  So blogger as for now I'm leaving my blog alone, at least til my eyes aren't crossed and I can control banging my head against the table.  When you are ready to cooperate please let me know!  Thanks again for all the headaches!!!
 

Chaos

Don't mind the messy blog look!  I'm trying to re-do some things, so it may take me a few days...or weeks!  Please be patient with me :)

Mother's Guilt

Why is it as a mother I allow myself to feel guilty?  I feel guilty if I leave my children somewhere, so I can have a night out.  I feel guilty if I leave my children with their OWN father, so I can run some errands.  I always rush at whatever it is I've left them to do.  I always say "this time I will relax, take my sweet time and enjoy it."  But it never fails the whole time I'm thinking "got to hurry so I can get the kids, or better hurry supper is in a hour."  I know my kids are in great hands {like I would leave them with a crazy person}, but I still rush around like a fool.  It's not like I don't see my kids through the week.  I'm a stay at home mom {working nights} plus I babysit 4 others.  It was a decision I chose.  I didn't want to send my kids to daycare.  I wanted to spend my days making their lunches and wiping their hiney's.  And don't get me wrong I love every minute of it...most days.  But sometimes I need a BREAK!!  I break up fights ALL day, sweep up crumbs, and someone is constantly hungry.  Some days I think "oh just 1 hour of peace would be awesome."  But then when I am offered that "peace" I rush through it.  I need to learn to not beat myself up.  I'm a good mom, and my kids love me, so I deserve some 'me' time.  My mom offers all the time to take them for the day, so I can go do something, or just stay home ALONE, but I always turn her down.  I figure if I'm home doing stuff then there is no reason my kids can't be with me.  Why do we do this as mothers?  Everyone deserves a break once in a while.  I should take one more often.  I know it would make me a far less crabby and stressed out mama!  I'm going to start trying, I mean REALLY trying to get some of this 'me' time I hear so much about.  Today I'm going to the grocery....alone.  I WILL take my time, maybe even go down every aisle.  Wild, I know!  Yeah it's not exactly pampering, but at least I don't have 2 kids fighting over who gets to hold the list.

What I Will Do

So today is the day.  The day were I'm suppose to list all the things I hope plan to accomplish in the new year.  It's kind of stressful I think.  Everyone asks "what's your resolution?"  What if I don't really have any resolutions?  I mean yeah I have some stuff I want to do, but it's crap that I have needed wanted to do the past 29 years of my life (ok maybe not that many, but you get the point!).  I probably don't need to wait til new years to do them.  I should of started most of them forever ago, and KEPT UP with them.  That's the kicker.  Everyone sets these high standards of resolutions, only to set themselves up for failure.  That's just my opinion anyway.  So anyway here's my list of "to do's" for the year....lets cross our fingers and hope for the best!! Oh, and my list may seem piddly, but like I said why set myself up for failure!   I'm listing things that I am sure I can actually accomplish if I don't turn into a lazy slob of a person.

1.  Wash my face EVERY NIGHT before bed.  I don't know why this is so hard for me!  I do good for about 1 day a week, then I quit.  I know it's bad for my skin, and supposedly ages you more, but I still snooze in my mascara. 

2.  Make beds EVERY DAY.  Once again, not that hard!  The only times our bed get made is when the sheets are changed or if company is coming.  I just never really see the point in making it.  I mean you're just going to sleep in it again later.  However, I do love when they are made just because of the "neatness" it makes in the room.   Really I would only have to make 2 of our 3.  Jax is pretty good at making his now days.  Granted it's not done to my OCD standards, but its done!  Plus it teaches him some responsibility.

3. Date night with the husband.  Some people have them once a week, well that's not feasible for us (see #6).  I'm shooting for once a month.  No kids, just me and him doing whatever our little hearts desire.

4. No more paper towels.  We go through them like there is no tomorrow.  Actually if we keep it up there may not be a tomorrow for our Earth.  Okay that may be a little exaggerated!  I've already ordered some cloth napkins from Etsy, and they should be here this week.  I haven't broke these news to Den yet, he will probably crap himself!

5.  Recycle!  I have no excuse other than total laziness as to why I don't recycle.  I will do it though!!  I'm going to purchase containers and set them up in the garage.  I'm sure by doing this our trash will be cut in half. (sad I know)

6.  SAVE, SAVE, SAVE.  We save fairly well, but need to start hitting it harder.  We started Dave Ramsey 2 years ago today, and let me just say that man is my hero!  (how infomercial was that)  He has simple, easy steps that have helped us to pay off all our debt except our home, and lake house.  The lake house was a late buy, but was worth it because we have such a fun time as a family there!

7.  Set up a cleaning schedule.  It's no secret that I have a touch of OCD, but I would still like some order to my madness.  I HATE doing baseboards and windows, so they only get done for spring cleaning.  I want to change this to about once a month.  I figure if I do a couple rooms a week it shouldn't be too bad, right?

8. 30 Day Shred. (had to throw in some exercise stuff, I mean it is new years resolutions!)  Oh Jillian how I love to hate her!  I started doing the workout last year.  I was a trooper and did it for about 4 months, then summer came and I got lazy.  But I will start it again!  I felt so much better when she was making me look like a pansy.  And trust me you WILL feel like a pansy if you do this workout!  My muscles are quivering just typing about it!

So there you have it my list of "to do's" for the year, or hopefully for life!  What are your guys resolutions?  I'd be welcome to pointers on mine :)